 As anyone connected to the horror genre can tell you, we get more  than our fair share of questions that boil down to “why do you  read/write that stuff?” along with the accompanying nervous sidelong  looks and wrinkled nose gestures. And, put on the spot, I’ve always  found it difficult to give a reasoned answer, settling for either the  glib (“because I’m more twisted than a yoga mom wrestling with a Slinky  in a pretzel machine”) or the cop-out (a bewildered shrug). So when Sue  Palmer from Book Junkies did me the recent kindness of asking me a far  more nuanced and generously-phrased version of that question, I snapped  her hand off and wrote down some thoughts. Only, I didn’t actually snap  her hand off. That’s a metaphor, thankfully. Here are those thoughts,  and I think they come closest to capturing what it is about the genre  that attracts me, repels me, keeps me coming back as a reader, writer  and even viewer. Well, all this and the euphoric thrill of the carnival  ride, too; let’s not forget that.
As anyone connected to the horror genre can tell you, we get more  than our fair share of questions that boil down to “why do you  read/write that stuff?” along with the accompanying nervous sidelong  looks and wrinkled nose gestures. And, put on the spot, I’ve always  found it difficult to give a reasoned answer, settling for either the  glib (“because I’m more twisted than a yoga mom wrestling with a Slinky  in a pretzel machine”) or the cop-out (a bewildered shrug). So when Sue  Palmer from Book Junkies did me the recent kindness of asking me a far  more nuanced and generously-phrased version of that question, I snapped  her hand off and wrote down some thoughts. Only, I didn’t actually snap  her hand off. That’s a metaphor, thankfully. Here are those thoughts,  and I think they come closest to capturing what it is about the genre  that attracts me, repels me, keeps me coming back as a reader, writer  and even viewer. Well, all this and the euphoric thrill of the carnival  ride, too; let’s not forget that.
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Horror is the only genre named after an emotion, and a very specific  feeling at that. Which is strange when you think about it. I mean, why  don’t we call comedy “hilarity,” or drama “alarm”? But this one word  doesn’t really do it justice, since we can experience everything  from terror to revulsion to disquiet when reading a horror story. This provides a lot more scope than is immediately obvious, and  the genre has always suffered from a perception of distaste. Or plain  bad taste. Something it has fully and even gleefully embraced on  occasion. I think it’s far more rich and varied than the casual reader  often assumes, however, and its effects can range from the thrill ride  at the carnival to sheer gross-out to a sense of true and deep unease.  Escapism? Catharsis? The arguments have raged on that one for centuries.
I wish I could cite just one author as my main inspiration, but I’d  have to reel off a list. I suppose Stephen King comes closest, in terms  of his dazzling and prolific storytelling ability, although my own  stories tend not to lean toward the supernatural as much as King’s do.  Clive Barker, for his sheer writing chops, his unrelenting willingness  to go places most shy away from and his complex imaginative  world-building, would be another.
My own tastes tend toward the darkly psychological and even surreal.  If you could somehow meld Barker’s technical wizardry with King’s  storytelling and throw in some David Lynch, you might get what I am  trying to achieve when I write horror. I suppose the best word to sum  that up would be dread. A kind of bleak yet strangely or fleetingly  beautiful unease. The agony of that elusive beauty amid the sewer. I am  intrigued by exactly how far down that old disused well really goes. And  not so much what lives in it but what lives within us when we find ourselves there.
As for modern horror, I think it is currently as diverse as it has ever been. With everything from the Twilight series (not a fan, but each to his or her own) to both American Horror Story and The Walking Dead on television, there seems to be a resurgence in those traditional  horror tropes I tend not to be as interested in (zombies are my one  exception to this, as they seem almost plausible in a world in which  genetic experimentation, environmental disaster and deadly viruses are  not only possible but actual realities). And recent horror film is a  rich smorgasbord, with incredible twenty-first century pickings such as Audition, Let the Right One In, Martyrs, Oldboy, REC, and hundreds of others I could name here. But I don’t complain about  even the more lightweight stuff, as I remember times when the horror  genre was brushed under the carpet, treated like the redheaded  stepchild of all genre writing, basically looked down upon. For this  renaissance, King must take a huge amount of credit. That said, I don’t  think a genre that explores some of the darker sides of our nature will  ever be accepted by the mainstream, for good or for ill. There will be  plenty who see it as exploitative or gratuitous or sensational or even childish, and  oddly, some of those same people will laud Shakespeare, Oscar Wilde, the  Grimm brothers, Charles Dickens, Henry James, Daphne du Maurier, etc.,  all of whom wrote horror at some point.
There are so many branches, however: the religion-based terror of The Exorcist is a world away from the transgressive horror of, say, Dennis Cooper or  Poppy Z Brite. The late-’80s horror resurgence that gave birth to the  so-called splatterpunks (Skipp, Spector, Lansdale) was also the era in  which Peter Straub’s literary and darkly imaginative work was ascendant.  Or Ramsey Campbell’s near-hallucinogenic nightmare visions of urban  decay. John Farris, too (now there’s a relatively unheralded master).  And yet they are equally capable of shocking. Or disturbing. Again, why  some readers should want to be disturbed escapes me, but in a world  where babies are sometimes raped and bayoneted in front of their  parents, or in which our bodies can turn on themselves and literally eat  us alive, I don’t blame horror writers for reflecting that and trying  to wrestle with how truly awful things can get, how deeply, sickeningly  violent humans can become. Writers write about the human condition,  after all. Perhaps if I can tell some of these stories while shedding  some light on the terrible darkness, there’s a glimmer of healing. Or  maybe me and my fellow horror fans/writers are kidding ourselves and all  we really want is that thrill ride on the roller coaster. Or maybe it’s  some of each. I honestly don’t know. But thanks to my work with abused  kids, I do know this: Telling stories can be how we deal with trauma; in  fact, relating our “truths” out loud is essential to what trauma  experts have called “critical incident stress debriefing” and perhaps  that, in the end, is the root impulse of the genre we’ve chosen to term  “horror”—that by telling each other how it felt to meet the boogeyman,  we’re simply trying to heal.
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A version of this post appeared in Book Junkies Journal and on Indies Unlimited on April 27, 2012. David Antrobus also writes for Indies Unlimited and BlergPop. Be sure to check out his work there if you like what you read here.